Life with three babies

I stayed home and took care of the kids and house. The twins were actually quite easy to care for. They were happy just being together. They could sit on the floor together and be happy without demanding all my attention like a single baby demands. True there were a lot of diapers and baths and things like that. My nipples got a bit sore since I didn't have any milk. No, Sue nursed them for well over a year. I still ran the word processing business while Sue did the keying in of data.

My basic philosophy of raising kids was to talk to them a lot, read a lot, play a lot with them, stimulate them with music and new experiences and get them outdoors playing and exercising as much as possible in a healthy social environment. We got along fine. I even started to watch other babies with mine. I ended up with six babies and got a daycare license. We moved the word processing business to an office and I did daycare out of the house. Sue ran the word processing business herself now. Her and I were not getting along.

When Sue hit bottom using her drugs and alcohol I separated from her. I wanted to share living arrangements so that the kids could still have both parents closely involved in their lives. I thought we could still be friends and parents but have our own separate personal lives. It did not work out that way. One day I came into the bedroom and I found the twins playing with a big bag of drugs. I realized then that having Sue around the house was actually a danger to the kids. We needed to split up. I tried to negotiate a peaceful settlement but Sue turned to dirty tricks. She actually told me what she was going to do and that there was nothing I could do to stop her or defend myself. She told me the courts would totally back her up and fuck me over. She was right.

Sue charged me with sexually abusing my kids. I was arrested and thrown in jail. She was awarded custody of the kids. She pulled a whole lot of other dirty lies out of a hat and filed court papers that made me look like I was a monster of some sort. She claimed I beat her and the kids and sexually abused them and lots of others too. I don't know how she came up with her dirty tricks but she came up with a long list. I had to have three trials to defend myself against just the sexual abuse charges. Here's the kicker, Sue had me taking the kids while I was in trial because she didn't want them. My attorney would not allow this information into court. She told me it was best for the kids if we just kept quiet about the fact that I had the kids. If the court found out they would put the kids in foster care and that would be worse for them. So during the day Sue testified in court about how terrible I was and then after court she delivered the kids to me with an evil grin. I eventually won all three court cases but then I still lost my kids on paper because to disrupt their current care schedule would be too hard on the kids according to the court. I could not point out that I had the kids the whole time and Sue was given custody with me having fifty percent visitation rights. All I can say is the family law courts in this country are so screwed up that everybody involved with them loses. My kids were the biggest losers here. The old saying "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned" sure seemed to fit this case.

I was never able to regain my good name after being accused of being a child molester. All my friends were afraid to let me watch their kids after this "just in case" they said even though they "knew" I was innocent as charged. Even my family still thinks I am a child molester. Sue has never apologized for being so evil. Now as adults my kids know the whole story and they resent her abuse but such is life. It is over for everybody but me. I will always be the child molester in people's minds. I will never forgive her for that. I don't dwell on it but it still affects my life every day. I died during this period of my life. I have never recovered. Life ever since has been just going through the motions for me. I have never been able to love anything or anyone ever since. This is merely a short synopsis of the whole event. It was way worse than this short blurb could ever describe. I just don't want to relive the whole thing by putting it all down on paper.

In the end I had a house a half a block away from Sue and the kids spent about half the time at each house for the rest of their childhoods. I had a court fight and regained my childcare license and did childcare again. I found some great kids in my group and some great parents. I did not have the same love to share that I had before all the court drama but I managed to fake it pretty well.

I also had another baby. I started to go out with another childcare provider that I met at the park while I was watching my kids there. She got pregnant and we had the baby who was born at home during all my trials. So I now had four kids. The trip to South America would have to wait a bit longer now.